Thursday, December 24, 2009

Lessons from the past

I went to a singles dance in Memphis this month. My favorite part was getting to visit with Elder Bird. He is a young missionary that used to work in my area. However, it was the drive up that taught me a lesson. I met a new friend who told me about her ancestry. Her family converted to Mormonism back in the days of Brigham Young. They lived in Wales and her great, great, great....grandmother would sell milk and eggs to try to earn money. She was saving up to move to the United States so she could meet up with the saints going out west.
This dear sister was nine months pregnant with her 8th child when she found out that President Young was sending a relief ship for the converts in her area. She told her husband they were going to be on that ship. Out of love for her, he wanted to wait. Such a journey would be hard for anyone, but someone 9 months pregnant with seven other children already to care for, it just seemed too much.
She was determined though, and nothing her husband said could disuade her. Finally, he relented. They were going to be on that ship. Some missionaries came to their home and gave them a blessing. During the blessing, one missionary boldly stated that if they kept the commandments, not one family member would be lost on the journey. Now for a personality like mine, that blessing would be terrifying. I would feel the safety of my family depended on me not sinning in any way- no unkind thoughts, no selfish actions...wow! so much pressure. My new friend explained to me that there is more grace involved than that. Good thing.
Off her relatives went. Her ancestor gave birth on the ship, and when they arrived in America she now had a precious new child that they took turns carrying on a pillow. Unfortunately there were 400 more people that had arrived than even President Young knew about so there were not enough hand carts for the pilgrims about to embark on the trek across the country. They had to build their own handcarts out of green wood. The journey was hard. There was snow on the ground almost the entire way, often in blizzard conditions. Their 7 year old had to be tied to the cart so he wouldn't get lost in the storm. But, just as God promised, their family arrived with not one member losing a life. Our God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. This is the same faithful Father, who tells me everyday, "Dispute not because you see not." when I am faced with fear of His promises to me going unfullfilled.

I learned two things from this dear sister's experience:

1. Trust and Faith. You see my Heavenly Father promised me something too. Something private, so don't ask. However, current circumstances have often caused me to doubt His promise. I don't see how it is possible. But, then I am reminded of the words of the angel to Mary. "For with God, nothing shall be impossible." I, like Mary, am a bondservant of the Lord and need to remember and trust that "It shall be done to me according to His word." Trust is hard for me, so maybe that is what my Father is trying to help me learn.

2. Perserverance. Things in my life are difficult and at times exceedingly painful. There are days I wish the Lord would not require me to continue. I remind myself now, that this woman also had a difficult storm to whether (both literally and figuratively), but because she was faithful all of her family arrived safely to their destination. I will be faithful too. Then I too will see the word of God fulfilled.

2 comments:

Janelle Rothe said...

Ann Marie! You are such an inspiration. I know i've said it before. But I'm so lucky to have an example like you in my life. Seeing converts to the church, and their struggles amaze me. I don't know if I could do that. Your humble submittance to the Lord, and your willingness to do ALL He asks you help me understand that with my small trials, I can do it too.


I love you! Thanks for sharing this story!

Annmarie Worthington said...

Janelle,

I love you too. Thank you for your sweet comments. I miss your beautiful smile.