Lately I’ve been trying to write in my blog once a week. It helps me think. The problem I have is this week has been filled more with questions than anything else. Even my Scripture reading leads to more questions. I used to have someone to regularly dialogue that through with, but don’t anymore.
I wish you could see my poor Scripture journal. It’s filled with scribbled notes and LOTS of question marks in the margin. Those indicate things I don’t understand and need to learn more about. Some of them are probably simple to life time members, such as is the Spirit of Christ and the Holy Spirit the same thing? Others are deeper. Still others are just things I wonder about myself.
In a talk given by a dear brother in my ward last week, he made the statement “Everyone in mortality is perceptually challenged.” I agree with that. I also wonder how we get past that to see clearly.
There was however one neat thing I learned this week. I read this week in Galatians 4:7 “Thou are no more a servant, but a son.” (daughter in my case). I’ve read my New Testament many, many times through. I don’t know why this was the first time I had ever really grasped that verse. I am more than a servant.
Previously, I had only seemed able to see myself as a servant. My job was merely to obey God and know Him. But it is more than that. He’s a Father to me. Just as I’ve been learning to see Him as my companion, I can see Him as the Father I long for. Unfortunately, I still haven’t gotten past looking to the “arm of flesh”. There are days when I reach out for His companionship as a last resort. One day, He’ll be who I think and desire to turn to first. Too bad He doesn’t answer right away sometimes.
I’m glad eternity is so long, because I’m going to have a very long question list when I get there. Hopefully I can knock a few of them off the list in the meantime.